grandma cremeted today....mum say she died peacefully...so we should be happy...so we should be happy that she led a good life in another world... though i'm sad that grandma had left..but that is life...one person have to go one day....life is short...so we must treasure our loves one everyday....i will always remember the day my grandma died....and will look back at this post after one year....21/5 ....

to grandma: grandma led ur life peacefully at the another world....at that world, no pain and sadness for u...only hapiness....=) .....and remember to come back to see us...=)

Qing obsessed with jay chou 9:48 PM

....very sad now....my grandma has passed away...and it's so sudden...didn't get to see everyone before she goes... but at least i saw her and she saw me the last time. but finally she can have a big rest ler...after so much struggle this few days..see liao also sad....she manage to go off smoothly... actually she dead once and then revived again...because we keep calling her...we say some of them haven come yet..she must see all then can go...but still she can't wait...some of them didn't see...

before she goes..actually we know abit ler...cause this few days we call her or talk to her she will reply..but before she die, she already unconsious ler..den we keep calling her she didn't reply...den my mum quickly ask mi to call docter...i ran out of the room and shout everywhere for docter...but when docter came in...she actually...half go ler...she can hear abit lor...docter ask us to be prepared....it was like so sudden...and my cousin brought her a mian xian and just nice today her bday and my cousin tell my grandma...ah po....u haven eat the mian xian u cannot go....but still no reaction....and the heart beat meter went straight,,, but after calling her a few times..the heart beat move again...because we told her to wait for others...but after a few mins...it's went straight again..this time...she is really gone....and i cried...she dotes on me alot when i were small...

those we see my blog...thanks for ur concern....i will be alright....but wun be blogging this few days...need to calm my emotional down...perhaps after my ah po last day....last word for ah po....

啊婆。。。。。你要好好上路。。。我会永远记得你。。。。sob sob....

Qing obsessed with jay chou 11:04 PM

Very sad today...grandma condition now quite bad.. serious critical condition...very sad...no mood totally...recieved sms from one of my cousin when i was with friend...saying my grandma is serious condition and i called mum and we went down...

seeing grandma using the oxygen breathing very hard, just like no breath like this... and keep saying she veri xin ku... keep feel giddy....can't sleep, can't eat, can't drink...my heart nearly bleed...she wanna give up...she say she knows that she can't hang on anymore....i know i know...her time's is soon up...but pls god...dun take her away so fast... her birthday is coming this wed...pls..let her live till her bday...god...pls dun take her away so fast... i can't bear to leave my grandma...

small that time...grandma takes me from school to home. for a few years...till when i was in secondary school...when i was very small..she also come my house to take care me....she is my fav grandma...and i usually thinks that she is the greatest mother....i love her lots..

docter says...her breathing pipe and lungs...got infection....so...quite serious..getting serious and serious and docter say...if she going to 'go' le...cannot tahan...den docter will not save..and he had spoken to my mum's younger brother...cause he dun want grandma so xin ku....and she's old le..84 this year..if the docter were to revived her...she come back to live..she more xin ku....i heard le...damn sad...but what can i do....i only can pray...and nothing i could do...really nothing.......dots........sorry...guys...quite emotional now...that's all for today

Qing obsessed with jay chou 3:08 PM

totally no mood now.. feel so useless....today friendly match there's 5 of us didnt get to play in the match..and that's ok...2nd time they play we also didnt get to play...and when we was training...i think i played so bad....not like last time anymore.. but coach also didn't let us play to see our skill.... and like this cast us out...actually i was very unhappy that time but i also know that i played so bad la...but...i think the coach should give us chance to play and show our skill ma.. i know that it has been sometimes i never play bball, like a few years and now start to train sure play very bad de...i thinking of training for few days...but is like totally no time...just now i was telling myself..i did so badly...and thinking of still wanna join anot...

so when i was walking out of the school...i was thinking...so should i or should i not....then i start thinking maybe try for a few more training...den see how ba...totally no mood now....

Qing obsessed with jay chou 11:27 PM

today i went back to clementi ite to take cert with my classmate. No time to visit teacher, so we just eat and went back to rp. And last week and this week having understanding test. and i think is very difficult la. but today lesson quite easy...just play games...and holidays are coming...yes!!...so happy....hopefullly got work for me to work...$$$ no money...i wanna shopping..!!...argh...totally no time...getting more and more stress... more and more tired...aw...tomolo got another ut test...got to prepare to study lor...cya!

Qing obsessed with jay chou 10:03 PM

this few days nth special happen. training was ok..but just a little sprain on my leg...and we are having friendly match with hong kah secondary school. so i borrow a jersey shirt from jas cause they say they nid a white jersey to play...and jas told mi that she wanna slim down so asked me to join her to play bball in weekdays..lol

today lesson was quite fun.. unlike past few weeks, presentation and presentation... today we whole class doing skit.. and some being narrator some do acting...and i'm the one who's do the acting and i'm acting as a daughter as i'm a rebelious type..and that's true for my role..lol...and i thinks is fun by presenting our presentation in this way...lol

tml singing k with ah wee...hee...busy busy busy....

Qing obsessed with jay chou 9:55 PM

Now..i'm think over weather i should join bball...i think i played well..but coach don't seems to see that. And the ppl there is like...see ppl de la....the first year student like boot-licking the senior den make de senior know them like very well. Then make them as teammate...den those quiet quiet but play quite well de being left out..wtf? n

ot sure weather i in the team anot..coach din't say anything..and the bball player got more than 20 ppl..sure some will kana eliminate out. but i hope i'm not the one but it seems to me that i gonna be the one.. i think the coach shuld choose out the ppl and dun let those nv get in the team..wasting the time training there..

if i not inside the team...i think i will not go for bball training anymore. so fed up....even bball also got politics...damn...what is the world are now?

i dunnoe what shuld i do? join or not join?ZZZzzzz

Qing obsessed with jay chou 11:27 PM

today labour day....heard my father side the grandma celebrating her birthday together with mother day...and then heard after that heard my mother side the grandma fell down and hurt her head...den my aunt living with her didn't send her to hospital...den my mum veri angry and worried so we went down to see her...seeing her quite alright but she like no strength to talk or move....aw...she so pathetic lah...

my grade seems to fall back to c and d's...sianzz.....how or when can i get back my a's and b?

lol...ok...brought two pants today..cost me 45 dollars..=)

Qing obsessed with jay chou 11:38 PM